Saturday, November 15, 2014

Goodbyes, Changes, Goals, and all that.

Winter seems to have arrived even though we're a little over a month away from the official date.   While we didn't get much snow here where I live, I did have to encounter it within the city of Cleveland. Yuck. Yuck. Yuck.

Another thing I've learned, my knee does not agree with winter.  Last year at this time I was dealing with knee issues and it appears that is the case again. It's constantly throbbing and cracking and just hurting.  I hate winter.

Monday afternoon Rich and I took Sheba for her final car ride. It was horrible.  Awful. Depressing.  Two in one year. We lost Galen in January and now Sheba.  I loved those dogs with all I had.  I posted some feelings on my other blog earlier this week and one of the things I wondered, do people without human children take it harder than those who do when they lose a pet?   I'm not diminishing what they feel, I'm just wondering about those who put all their love and affection into their fur babies if they feel it harder?  

I miss my original babies. The "Old Guard" as Rich has taken to calling it.  I wish I could go back in time to hug them.     Duchess has looked for Sheba.  It's sad.     I was doing relatively well until a flower delivery came today. The vet we have taken all our kiddies to since moving out this way sent condolence flowers.  It touched me so deeply.   I cried. Rich was touched. It really meant a lot.  They (the vet clinic) is really a wonderful place. They've loved my dogs and their reactions as we've lost them one by one has shown.  I like that in spite of the number of clients they have, they still took time out to do that.

So, this week has been hard.  I'll admit it. It didn't help that there is no longer a schedule in my life. Things have been so hectic and crazy at home and at work.  Throw in some mourning. Throw in some weather and throw in a lot of I don't give a crap....this week sucked.

I've also had a lot of time to think in spite of my busyness.  How do I regain my focus?
Since coming off of PSMF one thing after another:  My medication changes. My physical issues. My trip.  My car. My Sheba.    Then there's the self sabotage..... I need to reign this in. I need to find my focus. I'm not about to lose ALL the hard work that I did.  

I realized I haven't set any goals for myself.  What's the point of doing all this if I don't have anything set in "stone" to direct where I'm going to.   I've thought about it and want to challenge myself.   SO...
without further ado, my goals.

Walking/Steps:  I'm changing my daily goal on Fit Bit. I'm going to adjust it from 10K to 12K/day.   I was originally thinking of 15K, but realistically I don't know if I can pull it off EVERY day.  So, my goal is 12K/day.     I'm also going to do more challenges on Fit Bit because those really motivate me. If you do Fit Bit and we're not friends yet, FIND ME. Elbee96 or follow the link on right of my main page.

Pop:  I was drinking too much of it again.  I've cut back but I would like to go back to eliminating it completely.     

Bike/Hula hoop.  I've not touched either in 5 weeks. I'm going to start doing one or both at least 4x a week.

Exercise: We did some exercises when I was in the biggest loser. They're EASY to do at home (Easy as in I just need space to move and some time). They're killer on the abs and legs. I am going to start doing these at home for approximately 20mins starting at 3x a week.

Walking: I've not walked much during my breaks at work (I've truly been busy, but have no reason to skip my 15 min breaks).  I am going to take my 2 breaks and I am going to walk during them.  While on site at work: every day.  Telework days: As long as there is no ice or slippery snow on the sidewalks, I'm going to walk during them. If I need to, I will pay $7 to go to the indoor track across the street.

Weight. I am going to lose 20lbs (all that I gained) in one month.  On Dec 15, I am going to be down 20 lbs.  

Diet: I'm going to make sure I log EVERYTHING.  NO MATTER WHAT. I got lazy and I am going to stop it.   Log and sticking to my calorie goal!!

So, there you have it. My goals for the next 30 days.      

Sunday, November 9, 2014

Hi.

Alright, Yes I know. I haven't been actively blogging. Soo many excuses....reasons. Some legitimate: I won't blog using a mobile device.   Some not so legitimate: I'm busy?  IE: Lazy


You can also probably ready between the lines as well. I've been HORRIBLE.

So many arguments and reasons: I legitimately have had some physical issues I've been dealing with due to diet/med/weather changes.  I'm in pain daily. While it's nothing like it once was, it's still there.

I sit here typing feeling pain in my shoulders, back, hands, feet.......motivation is hard to come by, but I am fighting.

I have not stepped on a scale. I'm petrified to do so.  I must not be too bad because last week I heard from...I lost count, but I did hear from many different people who complimented me on how good I looked.  Wondering how much more weight I have lost.   I was honest and said I gained, but they all said the same thing: You look good.

So I am going to take that to heart.  
My choices have sucked lately.  They have. I know that . I know it as I'm making them.   I am still fighting the fight.  

Stick with me......



On a sad note that will effect me emotionally, we're saying goodbye to our oldest pup in the next two days.   We've come to the decision that she has no life.  She's mostly blind, mostly deaf, can barely move, and all other senior dog issues, including dementia.  

She's been the hardest to deal with as she's been so stubborn. Her will is there but the body has failed her.   So I am going to have to dig in and be good through this.  

Don't give up on me, I'm here working to get back on track.......

Sunday, November 2, 2014

Bernie SHuffle

Hey.
How's it going?   Decent here.   Busy weekend of sorts.

I did my 5k. It was definitely an experience.

First off, let's talk about the weather. This is what it was supposed to be.  In actuality, there were 33 mile an hour winds, rain and it was freaking cold.   The race started at 8AM and was held downtown along the lake front.    BRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

At the beginning of the race there was a "hold up" that I walked past. Mr Kosar himself was there and people stopped to surround him.

I kept trotting along. Getting pelted with rain in my multiple layers, coat, gloves, hat and scarf.

I had my MapMyFitness going and my Walk playlist blasting away.

While I did not do as well as I did on the FoxTrot. Between the wind and rain, I did decent enough.

I was averaging 17+min/mile. 

Not once did I think of quitting as I froze my toes off (shoes were soaked).

I crossed the finish line and went to look for my friends.

Bernie was there if you wante dto meet him and take a pic. My choice was stand in line to meet him or get in the dry warm car.   Guess what won out???
Getting dressed
 
Let's rock this 5K
We're cold. We're wet. We're tired. but we finished!

SO
here are my stats:
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