Hey all.
Where to begin? No more hiding? Thanks to a very good friend? New purpose?
So, we all know I've been ...less than honest about my weight loss as of late.
Let's be real, there wasn't any. Weight gain, sure --plenty of that. I can't say I've been totally blowing it off lately. I have "tried" but was easily derailed.
I hadn't logged in MyFitnessPal in a long time. I wasn't doing much working out or walking. I wasn't making smart choices.
Two things happened within a day of each other that have made me buckle down. First was a text from my dear friend Lissette. It was just a little reminder that she missed seeing my logging in MFP. Her gentle nudge reminded me that someone is watching out for me.
The second thing was NKOTB announced their next tour. OK, so how does that have anything to do with my weight loss?
My last pictures taken with the guys were not flattering at all.
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| June 2013 |
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| Aug 2013 |
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| July 2009 |
SO as you can see, not pretty at all.
I am doing another M&G this tour. Three days after my birthday. I now have a date. I need to make sure I look BETTER than I did in any of these photos. I now have a goal in site. My reason to focus.
So I did two things. First I was honest with the weight loss on the MFP tracker. You will now see how far I've fallen and how far I need to go. It's going to be tough. The exercise is going to be my downfall, but I will do what I can.
Secondly, I'm making sure I log into MFP. Two days in. Yesterday I logged everything I ate and was UNDER my 1700 calorie goal. Can we say "YAY?"
Today I've been busy this morning. I did my 10 min tae bo video. It has 8 ten minute work outs. I figured it would get me going and those days where I don't have a lot of time, it would be better than nothing.
While two days doesn't sound that fabulous, considering I couldn't make it past 1 day in recent months, this is a huge thing.
I hope to be able to continue reporting progress. Fingers crossed.
SO....let's get this party started...again.
How's your New Year treating you? Up until Friday, it was C R A Z Y! I had so much going on it was not even funny. I'm now caught up and trying to take care of a bunch of things that have been put on the back burner.
First, that "challenge" I posted about ...yeah. I've failed. I've done a bit of this and that (new videos), got on the bike, walked, danced....but I need to work on my eating.
Now my topic is perceptions of yourself.
I'm currently going through very old photos and negatives and scanning them to digital. So I'm seeing me in all my sizes.
It's s so amazing to me as I look at these pictures I once despised because I felt so over weight in them. Holy Crud. What was I bitching about? Really, I looked fabulous.
Even now, as I've gained weight, I look at myself and hate what I see. However if you rewind a few months ago when I was losing and got to this "point" I thought I looked fabulous. I admit I still look AWESOME compared to when I was severely over-weight, but still.
I know I'm not the only one with perception problems. It's just funny to me if I weighed this on my way down, I looked good. Weighing this on my way up, I'm "blah".
What is it that drives our perception of ourself? I know for a fact that I've had this problem for a long time. Example, my long time and one of my besties has a photo of us from when we were 14 up on her FB page. I clearly remember when I was that age how I felt about myself. I felt fat and awful. I was skinny! I was perfect for my height. That was the "issue". Because I'm a tall girl and have a bigger build, I tower over everyone and wore a larger size. Therefore in my eyes, I was "BIG".
I would love to go back to myself at 14 and tell myself "You're perfect".
Will I ever feel that about myself? Will any of us?
Hey! Happy 2015.
Ok. So many things to broach...
First:
I've had some major setbacks the past few months. I've made bad choices and let some "pains" take me down mentally. I worked hard and because of these bad decisions, I lost some ground. Yes I've gained weight. I'm not proud of it and I'm not happy about it. I am TRYING to do something about it. Stick with me as I soldier on.
Second:
I mentioned one time before Fit Bit Challenges. I am telling you, these things can get you motivated.
For example, this past weekend I was involved with 2 different ones. I'm fitbit 'friends' with my good friends who are also my neighbors. These gals are also my biggest cheerleaders and rivals.
Went over Sarah's to play some Cards Against Humanity and while we were waiting for the game to begin, we were jogging in place. We were competing against each other in a challenge.
I spent several nights the past week, running and dancing in place to try and take the lead. Lissette is a big motivator to get me moving.
So while I may not have done traditional exercises, I have been working my butt off dancing and running in place to try and win these Challenges.
Today, Sarah brought over one of her DVDs that we worked out with, while getting in our steps. Tomorrow I may not be able to move, but today I did do something.
Third, I'm trying to do :
I say trying because I keep having to start over due to left over birthday cake, a coke, a Hershey kiss.....so each day I start over. Do you want to try it?
