Choices

Hello dears. 

 

I apologize I have not updated in a bit.  

As I mentioned, I recently flew.  I can definitely check off the airport as one of my accomplishments.  Just a year ago I could barely stand or walk for more than five minutes. I needed the arm rest up in between seats in order to fit in the airplane seat.  I hated flying.  Now I fly through the airport on my own two feet and I’m am back into my own seat.  Times have changed.

 

Today’s topic is about choices.

I’m sad to say when I stepped on the scale this morning; it was NOT a pleasant outcome.  I’m sad to report I have gained more weight.  I figured it was coming because I could see it in the mirror.  

 

I have no one to blame but myself and the choices I made.   Each and every time I put food in my mouth, I have the choice to do so or not.  I have the choice on WHAT I put in my mouth.   I haven’t made good choices lately, although I am trying really hard to get better.

 

On my recent trip, it wasn’t a vacation. I spent a lot of time sitting while at the hospital.  I ate at the hospital.  I did walk.   I can’t say I scrapped that, but it was not as much as I have in the past.    So while I walked to try and work out, my food choices were to be desired.   I could have been a good girl and stuck to things that were healthy for me, but I chose not to.

 

Living a healthier lifestyle is difficult after you have not been doing so.  Each and every day I have the choice on whether or not I’m going to be active and walk or ride my bike. I have the choice on whether or not I’m going to have one more spoonful of peanut butter. I have the choice on what I’m ordering from that menu. It’s all on me.   My knee wasn’t really acting up this time around, so I can’t blame that.   This is all on me. 

 

I’m trying.  I’m only on day 2 of forcing myself to watch my calories and intake.  I am forcing myself to log ALL my food and close out the day in MyFitnessPal.  I need to get into a habit again of good eating. 

 

Yesterday my knee acted up when I was walking.  I chose to sit on my bike and take a leisurely “ride”, which was easier on my knees, in order to burn calories. 

 

I need to reevaluate my schedule to become better organized to allow myself to work out AND do the other things I need to.

The weather is turning SUCKY again, but I will continue to make the choice to try and get in focus.  

 

My temporary setback is the result of my bad choices.  If you want to lose weight or eat healthier, you need to make the right choices as well.   You have no one to blame but yourself  most of the time.

 

 

Flying is much different this time

No weight loss to report.  Weight gain? Unsure,  the scale moves up and down throughout the day.   I'm still in the! Same range add I have been,  so that's a positive.

I'm flying to Nashville again.  I do have a few thing to say about this experience.   Do you understand how much I enjoy walking? After being unable to walk or stand due to the pain,  walking through the airport and avoiding the people movers is such a thrill.   I can't wait for this wonder to be over so I can walk safely again.  I know Duchess misses it very much.   I came to the walking realization on my way to the D terminal in the airport.  I moved so easily,  I enjoyed it very much.   Please never take your ability to walk without issue for granted. 

I find myself having much more patience with those who do not hands that ability.  Been there . Done that. Keep the t- shirt.

As far as my behind in the plane,  noticeable difference.   I still require an extender.   Last time I flew in early October,  I was 15 pounds heavier.   Was does the 15 pound difference do?  Well,  it is still snug for me in the seat.  However,  all of me is in my seat.   I can,  for at least a flight of this length,  sit without needing the arm rests up in between the seats.  Positive signs that lift my spirits.

Another change in flying that doesn't deal with weight loss,  the ability to use this in plane mode as we take off.   That's right,  I'm composing this as we take off.

The only thing I've eaten this morning was a mini bagel from the United Club.   After last night,  that's a good thing.   Those who know me personally or flew me on FB read my ordeal.  Long story short,  car broke down.  Say on size of the highway for 4 hours.  Car impounded.

Well. 

not good news

Ooops posted this on the wrong blog.

Hi.  To start I want to let those of you who do not know me personally that this was a very bad week.

I'm a very very big dog lover.  Even more so towards my own. I love them as if they are my children.  This week I last my oldest.  Galen was over 14 years old.  We've had him since he was 4 months old.  I am heart broken and devastated.  We knew it was coming, but it does not hurt any less.

Since Tuesday, when it happened, I've not had focus. My diet had been poor.  I've faltered.

I've not abandoned my healthy eating at all.  I'm just allowing myself to participate in tonight's superbowl fiesta as a last hurrah before I regain my focus.

On one good note,  the pair of jeans I bought a few months ago and could not fit into now fit.

In hoping to begin blogging this next week.  I didn't have it in me this week.

Thank you.