Oh Lordy

Hi.

Let's get to business.   I mentioned my diet was going to be non-existent while I went away for my friend's wedding.  Yeah--totally non-existent.  

I weighed in for the Biggest Loser the day before I left and weighed in again when I returned.   NOT GOOD.
However, I can not be too mad. I had an absolute wonderful time while I was gone and I guess it was worth it.

I met with my Dr and am going to be working with her and my dietician on a special diet.  I'm hoping to get focused and use this as a kick start to keep me on track. When I meet with Gretchen (dietician) next week, we'll go over the finer points and see from there.

In the meantime, I've been good eating wise the past few days. I've stuck within my calorie goal by 200- which is really good.   The scale is slowly going back down so if I can keep this up, we'll be good.

I haven't been walking as first I was recovering from my weekend, second-it snowed again and third-I'm sick.   Yuck Yuck Yuck.  I hate being sick. 


I'm really trying to keep focused on eating right again and getting back into the zone.  

It's getting nicer out so my excuses are dwindling.  The plan is, depending on how I feel tomorrow, to head to the park for a walk with the dogs.  

I was looking at the pictures from the wedding. While I am not happy that I'm still on the big side, I'm very happy that my face isn't so wide anymore. I can definitely see the narrowing in the face so that makes me a bit happy.

Need to stay focused!

I'm hopefully going to log in with the weight again.  And I'll update it to the current weight, so there will  be a + /gain .....

Need to keep myself accountable.

Biggest Loser

So, I suck lately with my eating habits. I've established this and spoken about it in a few posts.  I'm really trying to get back on track.
The weather has gotten nicer, so I've taken the dogs on a few walks.   Yes Dogs---we adopted another walking companion for me.

How else do I get back into this and be serious?   Join the Biggest Loser competition at work. 

So as soon as I get back from my 6 days where eating and drinking healthy are not on the agenda, I am buckling down and focusing.

Six days? You ask.   A dear friend of mine is getting married in 2 days time.  A group of friends and myself are heading to the Detroit area to celebrate with her.  

This is a gathering a long time in the making. Although we will be missing half of our group (there will be 9 of us), we're going to celebrate, party, & enjoy each others' company as well as the alcohol that is joining us ....;)

I won't be posting until I get back so, this is a scheduled break.

When I get back, I'm going to be super duper focused!!!

Sunday, Sunday, Sunday!

Happy Sunday.
I hope you're doing well.   Me, just really really angry and no place to take the anger out.  I know I shouldn't let idiots and hateful people get to me, but it's more because these people are hurting those around me.  I have two in my life that are so selfish and hateful and unhappy people that I ache for those who are suffering because of them..

Enough of that....I just had to let you know my mind set before I continued.

I've been a failure.   It's all on me.   I know this.   I blame the weather & it is a portion of reason I'm failing.  

My dietician tells me I'm not a failure and to ease up on myself. I saw her Friday and she and I had a good talk. 
We discussed if I was still trying to avoid surgery or if I was going to change my mind.   I'm not. I am really trying to avoid that. If come August , one year after my initial appointments and no more progress, maybe I will.

She pointed out I'm still down, so not all is lost.   We're hoping with the change in the weather that HAS TO happen soon, that I'll get back on track.

Some progress. I did 2 things this week that were positive.  First was Sarah & I headed to the rec center and I walked the track in lieu of walking outside.     Second, I attended my very first Aqua Zumba.  Yeah, that was hell.  Yeah, I hurt like you wouldn't believe. Yeah, I'll do it again. 

Today was a decent day. 40's, Sunny, and Duchess and I went on a nice walk of the neighborhood.   So, I didn't sit on my behind all day. I'm doing that now.  I have a bunch of things to do here at the desk before I can relax for the night: Finish laundry, plan my spring 'gardening', have a to do check list for an upcoming trip (the wedding I may have mentioned).

We're also trying to adopt a new pup.   We'll keep you posted on that. 

TOday, meal wise I'm a bit over calorie wise but I was active. I didn't wear my fit bit (sorry), but I did keep busy.     

I really need a vacation from EVERYTHING.   I'm always doing something.

Really, I do hope to be blogging more once the weather improves and I'm out walking again. I hope to tell you more about the torture of aqua zumba.   ....

Have a great evening..........Elbee

It's been awhile........

Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. 

I know I’ve been lax.   I have all sorts of excuses.  First, I have a lot of trouble blogging from work; the browser we use is older and doesn’t allow for me to properly enter info.  I found a way around that, but it does require me to open Word, create a HTML page, type up the doc, save, and then open in notepad to copy the HTML and paste it into the blog site.    That is what I’m doing now.

Second, I hate hate hate blogging using my phone or tablet. Most of the time I remember to blog while I’m on one of those and will not use them to blog.  The whole autocorrect and weird formatting irritates me to no end. Maybe I should get a blue tooth keyboard?

Third, I suck.

After that awesome initial 6lbs lost, I gained it right back.  Snap of the fingers and the weight was back on.   Don’t know what happened and have been trying my darnedest.  I’ve been staying within my calorie goal or at least going over by 200-300 calories.  Considering I’ve made my calorie limit well under what I can intake, this should not be an issue.    I’ve done several days of 45+ minutes on the bike.  The only thing laxing is my walking.

I started a new rotation at work about 3 weeks ago.  Because of meetings and or training, I have not been able to walk the halls. Throw in some cold days, no walking at home.  

See I have a lot of excuses….. Got on the scale this morning and am back down 1.6 lbs. 

I have a wedding coming up and I originally was so excited when I was losing weight. I figured at the rate I was going, I’d have been down at least 80 lbs by now.  Long way off wouldn’t you say?   I desperately need this weather to warm up.  I need my walks & hikes and all that other activity that helped me initially.  

Onto food. 

I’ve mentioned before, I believe, two of my favorite things to eat. 

First the Good Greens bars.  Still love them.   Since switching to them and not taking the other protein bars, my stomach distress has practically disappeared.   I’m way to sensitive to sugar alcohols.     I have about 2 a day.  Usually a Banana Nut and a yogurt for breakfast and I have a stash in my car to snack on one during my drive home.   My favorite is actually the Chocolate Mint.  I could eat those all day if someone let me or if I had no will power.   

Yogurt.  I don’t remember if I spoke about it here or on FB, but I am in LOVE with Dannon’s Light & Fit Greek Yogurt; The extra protein versions.  It will either say 2X the protein or just indicate 80 calories and 12g of protein.    Either packaging, it’s the same yogurt.   Really, if you’re up for it, buy yourself one of each (the regular 80 calorie version with 5 or so grams of protein and one with the 10-12g of protein) and you’ll see and taste the difference.   The extra protein version usually is thicker and has more taste in my opinion.  My favorite is the Strawberry Cheesecake, but that is extremely difficult to find.  You find one, tell me where.   This has definitely helped a bit with my morning cravings.

Something else that is also good news, I haven’t gone up a size.  Recently I tried on a bunch of dresses to wear to the upcoming wedding I mentioned above.  I’m still in the lower size.   I even bought a new pair of work pants. It’s nice to have a comfortable pair that isn’t very baggy. Most of my work pants are as I really cannot afford to buy many in the lower sizes.

I am trying though.   Desperately trying.  If we could afford an elliptical or treadmill, believe me I’d be on that daily.  It is what it is though.  

Choices

Hello dears. 

 

I apologize I have not updated in a bit.  

As I mentioned, I recently flew.  I can definitely check off the airport as one of my accomplishments.  Just a year ago I could barely stand or walk for more than five minutes. I needed the arm rest up in between seats in order to fit in the airplane seat.  I hated flying.  Now I fly through the airport on my own two feet and I’m am back into my own seat.  Times have changed.

 

Today’s topic is about choices.

I’m sad to say when I stepped on the scale this morning; it was NOT a pleasant outcome.  I’m sad to report I have gained more weight.  I figured it was coming because I could see it in the mirror.  

 

I have no one to blame but myself and the choices I made.   Each and every time I put food in my mouth, I have the choice to do so or not.  I have the choice on WHAT I put in my mouth.   I haven’t made good choices lately, although I am trying really hard to get better.

 

On my recent trip, it wasn’t a vacation. I spent a lot of time sitting while at the hospital.  I ate at the hospital.  I did walk.   I can’t say I scrapped that, but it was not as much as I have in the past.    So while I walked to try and work out, my food choices were to be desired.   I could have been a good girl and stuck to things that were healthy for me, but I chose not to.

 

Living a healthier lifestyle is difficult after you have not been doing so.  Each and every day I have the choice on whether or not I’m going to be active and walk or ride my bike. I have the choice on whether or not I’m going to have one more spoonful of peanut butter. I have the choice on what I’m ordering from that menu. It’s all on me.   My knee wasn’t really acting up this time around, so I can’t blame that.   This is all on me. 

 

I’m trying.  I’m only on day 2 of forcing myself to watch my calories and intake.  I am forcing myself to log ALL my food and close out the day in MyFitnessPal.  I need to get into a habit again of good eating. 

 

Yesterday my knee acted up when I was walking.  I chose to sit on my bike and take a leisurely “ride”, which was easier on my knees, in order to burn calories. 

 

I need to reevaluate my schedule to become better organized to allow myself to work out AND do the other things I need to.

The weather is turning SUCKY again, but I will continue to make the choice to try and get in focus.  

 

My temporary setback is the result of my bad choices.  If you want to lose weight or eat healthier, you need to make the right choices as well.   You have no one to blame but yourself  most of the time.

 

 

Flying is much different this time

No weight loss to report.  Weight gain? Unsure,  the scale moves up and down throughout the day.   I'm still in the! Same range add I have been,  so that's a positive.

I'm flying to Nashville again.  I do have a few thing to say about this experience.   Do you understand how much I enjoy walking? After being unable to walk or stand due to the pain,  walking through the airport and avoiding the people movers is such a thrill.   I can't wait for this wonder to be over so I can walk safely again.  I know Duchess misses it very much.   I came to the walking realization on my way to the D terminal in the airport.  I moved so easily,  I enjoyed it very much.   Please never take your ability to walk without issue for granted. 

I find myself having much more patience with those who do not hands that ability.  Been there . Done that. Keep the t- shirt.

As far as my behind in the plane,  noticeable difference.   I still require an extender.   Last time I flew in early October,  I was 15 pounds heavier.   Was does the 15 pound difference do?  Well,  it is still snug for me in the seat.  However,  all of me is in my seat.   I can,  for at least a flight of this length,  sit without needing the arm rests up in between the seats.  Positive signs that lift my spirits.

Another change in flying that doesn't deal with weight loss,  the ability to use this in plane mode as we take off.   That's right,  I'm composing this as we take off.

The only thing I've eaten this morning was a mini bagel from the United Club.   After last night,  that's a good thing.   Those who know me personally or flew me on FB read my ordeal.  Long story short,  car broke down.  Say on size of the highway for 4 hours.  Car impounded.

Well. 

not good news

Ooops posted this on the wrong blog.

Hi.  To start I want to let those of you who do not know me personally that this was a very bad week.

I'm a very very big dog lover.  Even more so towards my own. I love them as if they are my children.  This week I last my oldest.  Galen was over 14 years old.  We've had him since he was 4 months old.  I am heart broken and devastated.  We knew it was coming, but it does not hurt any less.

Since Tuesday, when it happened, I've not had focus. My diet had been poor.  I've faltered.

I've not abandoned my healthy eating at all.  I'm just allowing myself to participate in tonight's superbowl fiesta as a last hurrah before I regain my focus.

On one good note,  the pair of jeans I bought a few months ago and could not fit into now fit.

In hoping to begin blogging this next week.  I didn't have it in me this week.

Thank you.